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Apa kabar senja saat ini...
Diluar sana langit begitu mendung...
Apakah disana kamu merasakan hal yang sama?
Mendung dan kelabu semuanya abu-abu.
Disini aku menatap langit sore, tak ada jingga tak ada senja...

Kita seperti langkah kaki kanan dan kiri..
Berjalan bersamaan dan beriringan..
Kamu masih ingat tawa diantara cantiknya langit dan teduhnya angin ?
Apakah kamu ingat gelak canda diantara senja sore dibatas cakrawala senja dan semilir angin sore ?
Apakah kamu masih bisa merasakan deretan langkah kaki yang tersapu lembutnya ombak dan pasir pantai?
Apakah kamu masih bisa merasakan ngilunya angin ketinggian diantara takjubnya mentari pagi?

Entah apa yang kau rasa saat ini..
Aku hanya ingin sepasang kaki itu tak pergi,
Tetap ada disini..
Merasakan rintik hujan dengan derai yang sama
Merasakan syahdunya kabut diantara pinus pegunungan..

Sungguh aku rindu kaki itu..
Kaki yang menemaniku dengan jalan pelan..
Memperingatkanku disaat aku akan tersandung..
Dan sesekali membantuku berdiri disaat aku lelah..
Kaki yang sesekali aku lihat bahwa kaki itu ada dibelakangku..

Kaki yang menjagaku tak terjatuh..
Kaki yang mengiringiku menuju ketinggian dan kedalaman..
Kaki yang melangkah dengan sabar tiada lelah tuk terus memastikan..
Bahwa aku baik-baik saja..
Aku masih mampu berdiri, berjalan,dan tertatih..

Aku rindu kaki itu...
Tolong jangan buat kakiku pincang..
Berjalan terseok..
Kemudian terjatuh...



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